http://health.msn.com/kids-health/articlepage.aspx?cp-documentid=100260748>1=31036
Man! This really stinks chicas!!! I can't blame you though because I fell in this same trap when I was in that age bracket. Look, I get it! Life can be stressful! Our parents can seem nuts sometimes! Home-work is killer! But we need to realize that as much as we want to believe that we are in control and that we won't get hooked and that we can quit whenever we want.... the truth is: that is a LIE FROM YOU KNOW WHERE!!!
I thought I was stronger than all the stuff I messed around with. I thought that at any given moment, whenever I was "over it", I was going to be able to walk away and say: "I'm done." Well, guess what? It wasn't with some -not so fun- repercussions that scared me half to death when I finally realized I needed to RUN away from the stuff I was using and the people that were influencing or providing it!
I remember one day watching a sitcom at home when, in the middle of a funny scene, I started bawling my eyes out! Literally, in the floor, face on the ground, sobbing! Why? I had no idea at the time! So, I did some research and found out that the culprit was entirely all the junk I had been putting in my system. I had abused it so badly that I sent brain into a chemical depression. This happens when your happy hormones are out of whack and your body feels ridiculously sad for no reason other than the chemicals in your brain are fried!
By the grace of the one and only God, perfect healer and perfect physician, that after that scare and running away from it all, I slowly recovered and now have no lingering side effects from my stupidity. Sadly I cannot say the same for some of my old friends. One of which ended up in a mental institution.
Listen, I'm not trying to scare you from doing this! Hopefully you are smarter than I was and won't come near the stuff! EVER! But if you are like me, you think you are stronger, or just plain curious, PLEASE reconsider! This is no joke! It can ruin your life and the life of those around you who LOVE YOU!!!
Ok, that's my soap box moment of the day! Feel free to comment or hit me up via email through my website if you need someone to talk to!
Love and blessings,
Emille
emille@emillevictoria.com
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Catching you up!
What's going on cyber world?!?! Man, it's been forever since my last blog so I'm seriously dusting off the cobwebs on my blogger acct. Needless to say, much has been going on and I'm excited to share!
I recently got Baptized!!! I know, shocking huh?! I surprised many that assumed I'd already been dunked. But nope! It was my 1st time! It was pretty cool. God has a continuously evident sense of humor with me and He loves to take me out of my comfort zone. So my baptism was not an exception. I joked that it was His payback at me for not getting baptized at 12 with the rest of my peers at a beautiful beach or clean baptistry inside a nice church. But nooooo... it ended up being a this murky lake in TN. But hey, what better place to lay to rest the dead man -woman- inside me!!! Bury that sucker deep down those murky waters where she's never to be seen again (Col 2:12)!
It was nice to have my family and church family there witness and support me on my decision and public proclamation of faith. It was a lovely service and there were 5 other people that endured the waters with me. All in all it was a great baptism service! But I also learned something! As you usually do when you seek and obey God and you walk in faith. Everything you do is an opportunity for you to grow and find Christ.
As I got out of the water and was greeted with congratulations and hugs, someone asked me how I felt. They asked me if I felt anything. I honestly shrugged my shoulders and on the inside kind of felt a little bad that I didn't feel anything. I mean, was I supposed to? Is there something in the Bible that says that God is always going to allow you to feel something emotional when you follow and obey him. If that's the case, then I'm in trouble! Cause, like I said, I didn't feel anything special. I felt confident that what I did made my heavenly father proud and that He was pleased with me!
Here's what was cool! The day before my baptism, I was in a prison ministry event in Lincoln, IL. We were in a yard at a women's facility where it was really hot and really humid! But we were determined to bring the love of Jesus to the women there and show them a great time! We had some music going and we were dancing and having a blast before we begun the program. And while the electric slide song was playing, I was fighting back tears!!! The entire time, it was like God was breaking my heart for these ladies that are so hurt and broken and they need Jesus so bad! I had my shades on because I didn't want to look all coo-koo crying my eye balls out while we're jamming to the electric slide and Aretha Franklin's "Respect"!
So, why the teary story? Well, because what I'm trying to say is that I feel God! I do! Often and sometimes seldomly! For me, as is usually the norm (accompanied with HIS sense of humor) it's at the oddest times, in the randomest places! He LOVES to jack me up when I least expect it almost to continuously show me that He is with me everywhere! And that he is EVERYWHERE!!! Don't you love that?! I do!
So my conclusion and lesson learned: Was God with me in Prison this weekend? YES! Was he there jamming with us as we showed the inmates a great time dancing the electric slide followed by blessing them with the opportunity to receive the gift of salvation?? YES!!! So, was He also there when I was cracking up, scared of snakes in the murky water, getting baptized, coming out of the water, yet feeling absolutely no human emotion? YES!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love that my Daddy challenges me, makes me question these things so I continue to seek him and HE continues to reveal himself to me... even when I can't see him or feel him. HE IS THERE!!!!
Check out the video of my baptism below and be encouraged when you don't "feel" HIM, HE IS ALWAYS THERE!
Love,
Emille
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8SWGHnl2pas
I recently got Baptized!!! I know, shocking huh?! I surprised many that assumed I'd already been dunked. But nope! It was my 1st time! It was pretty cool. God has a continuously evident sense of humor with me and He loves to take me out of my comfort zone. So my baptism was not an exception. I joked that it was His payback at me for not getting baptized at 12 with the rest of my peers at a beautiful beach or clean baptistry inside a nice church. But nooooo... it ended up being a this murky lake in TN. But hey, what better place to lay to rest the dead man -woman- inside me!!! Bury that sucker deep down those murky waters where she's never to be seen again (Col 2:12)!
It was nice to have my family and church family there witness and support me on my decision and public proclamation of faith. It was a lovely service and there were 5 other people that endured the waters with me. All in all it was a great baptism service! But I also learned something! As you usually do when you seek and obey God and you walk in faith. Everything you do is an opportunity for you to grow and find Christ.
As I got out of the water and was greeted with congratulations and hugs, someone asked me how I felt. They asked me if I felt anything. I honestly shrugged my shoulders and on the inside kind of felt a little bad that I didn't feel anything. I mean, was I supposed to? Is there something in the Bible that says that God is always going to allow you to feel something emotional when you follow and obey him. If that's the case, then I'm in trouble! Cause, like I said, I didn't feel anything special. I felt confident that what I did made my heavenly father proud and that He was pleased with me!
Here's what was cool! The day before my baptism, I was in a prison ministry event in Lincoln, IL. We were in a yard at a women's facility where it was really hot and really humid! But we were determined to bring the love of Jesus to the women there and show them a great time! We had some music going and we were dancing and having a blast before we begun the program. And while the electric slide song was playing, I was fighting back tears!!! The entire time, it was like God was breaking my heart for these ladies that are so hurt and broken and they need Jesus so bad! I had my shades on because I didn't want to look all coo-koo crying my eye balls out while we're jamming to the electric slide and Aretha Franklin's "Respect"!
So, why the teary story? Well, because what I'm trying to say is that I feel God! I do! Often and sometimes seldomly! For me, as is usually the norm (accompanied with HIS sense of humor) it's at the oddest times, in the randomest places! He LOVES to jack me up when I least expect it almost to continuously show me that He is with me everywhere! And that he is EVERYWHERE!!! Don't you love that?! I do!
So my conclusion and lesson learned: Was God with me in Prison this weekend? YES! Was he there jamming with us as we showed the inmates a great time dancing the electric slide followed by blessing them with the opportunity to receive the gift of salvation?? YES!!! So, was He also there when I was cracking up, scared of snakes in the murky water, getting baptized, coming out of the water, yet feeling absolutely no human emotion? YES!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love that my Daddy challenges me, makes me question these things so I continue to seek him and HE continues to reveal himself to me... even when I can't see him or feel him. HE IS THERE!!!!
Check out the video of my baptism below and be encouraged when you don't "feel" HIM, HE IS ALWAYS THERE!
Love,
Emille
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8SWGHnl2pas
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